Why the Northern Duke Wanders the Snowfields - Chapter 15

When the man’s thick thumb rubbed the damp peak, her nipple stiffened at the familiar pleasure.

“Haa.”

Kay raised both hands and grabbed the woman’s breasts. He liked the softer feel after the milk had been drawn out.

“Suck.”

The woman’s words were not an invitation but a command. Still, Kay did as she said.

Slurp. Lick, lick.

As he wrapped his tongue around the bud rich with the scent of milk and licked it like a dog, Aubrianna’s body slowly fell back.

But Kay’s lips didn’t follow.

When Aubrianna lifted her brows as if asking what he was doing, Kay spoke sullenly, “Say you’ll be with me.”

Though he grumbled, the man’s gaze was solemn and serious.

Beneath his thick brows, blue eyes glared at Aubrianna as if demanding it.

Hah. In the end, Aubrianna let out a baffled laugh. The breast he’d been sucking still held her nipple stiff for more, yet Duke Kaeloc was acting like a naive young man hurt after being rejected by a pretty village girl.

‘Being with you… in my previous life and in this life, it’s what I want the most.’

If she said something like that, how would he react? As Kay, who had lost his memory, he would probably leap with joy and pull her into his arms.

But the problem was that her state of mind now was different from before.

In her previous life, she truly wanted to stay by his side. She chased the back of a man who never looked at her and tried to find a way not to be abandoned. At one point, it became so painful to look only at him that she even tried to leave him instead.

The duke had never made her any promises, yet she took that silence as rejection.

“You’re just a woman to me.”

The man who came to her at night and ravaged her body whispered in her ear.

Even when she wanted to leave the ducal castle and ended up bound by pregnancy, it felt like he was telling her not to expect anything else, that she could never become his wife, and it made her heart ache.

That was why, even when rumors spread throughout the castle that he would become engaged to Lady Aileen, she couldn’t say anything.

Even then, she waited, thinking that selfish duke might someday look back at her.

While he attended banquets for his engagement, dancing with other women and whispering sweet words, she waited and waited with a longing heart full of devotion.

‘So naive, knowing absolutely nothing about the ways of the world.’

Scoffing at her foolish past self, Aubrianna looked at the man in front of her.

His clean-shaven face from not long ago was unmistakably the same man who had always tormented her.

The only difference was his eyes.

A thirsting gaze, like parched land waiting for rain. As her silence dragged on and his face grew colder, Aubrianna met his eyes calmly.

‘To think that desperate hunger in those beautiful blue eyes is directed at a woman with a child whose identity he doesn’t even know.’

It was an expression he’d never once shown her when she had longed for him.

The old anger, buried like a hidden ember in a corner of her heart, tried to rise, but she forced it down.

‘I have to stay cold.’

The woman she was in her previous life and the woman she was now had only gone back in time. Nothing else had changed.

She still bore an illegitimate child, and she was still a maid.

Since nothing around her had changed, this life meant she had to change.

‘I’ll take back my feelings for you now.’

There was no need for such shabby, worthless emotions that no one even recognized.

She hid her feelings and lifted the corners of her lips.

“Of course I’ll be with you.”

“Really?”

The man’s expression brightened at once. His stiff cheekbones lifted, and his eyes curved.

‘Of course. The baby and I need to be safe by your side.’

The moment she and the baby left the ducal castle, assassins had chased them, which meant someone had been targeting them all along.

‘It could be the duchess, who hated my existence for bearing an illegitimate child. Or his fiancée, Lady Aileen. Or perhaps another enemy entirely.’

Theo carried the blood of the Tennant ducal house.

Even if she and the baby disappeared from the world, they wouldn’t give up unless they confirmed their deaths.

Her slender arms lifted and pulled at the back of the man’s neck. Their faces drew close enough that their noses almost touched.

The man’s gaze searched her sharply, as if trying to read her sincerity.

“I just couldn’t answer earlier because it was too sudden.”

When her thin fingers gently combed through the back of his hair, the man’s eyes softened and slowly closed.

When their soft lips met, Aubrianna slipped out her tongue and licked his lips. The man’s body flinched at once.

Thinking she could control such a large body with just this small tongue made a thrill run down her spine.

“Open your mouth.”

As if obeying a command, the man parted his lips. She caught his tongue and lightly bit it with her small teeth, and a low groan rumbled from deep in his throat.

She licked the tip of his tongue and sucked on it, and his cock, already fully hardened, twitched and tapped against her lower abdomen.

“Like an impatient child.”

When she scolded it while toying with it in her small hand, the front of the man’s pants grew damp. Without breaking the kiss, he hurriedly stripped off his pants with urgent hands.

Then, unlike usual, he pushed into her hastily.

As if punishing her for delaying her answer.

“Ahk.”

In an instant, the initiative shifted to him. Startled by the man’s desperate hunger as he nearly bit down on her lips, Aubrianna cried out.

“Kay!”

Releasing her lips, the man began moving his hips, grabbing her wrist and pressing it down beside her head.

“I thought you’d go to that man instead of me.”

That man.

Looking at Kay’s anxious face, she realized who he meant.

The man who made her bear an illegitimate child. The man who abandoned her and was going to marry another woman. Kay’s forehead was deeply furrowed as he spoke of him.

She couldn’t tell whether it was because he disliked that man, or because he was satisfied with the feeling of his penis inside her.

As her body was suddenly shaken violently, Aubrianna’s breath hitched at once, and she could only let out moans without being able to explain.

“Ugh, ngh. Y-you’re too….”

She couldn’t even finish saying it was too fast before she was slammed down by his force, unable to breathe.

‘Why did this suddenly happen?’

But she couldn’t stop him. His desperate movements carried an indescribable despair, as if she might really leave him.

Aubrianna was pushed back by the force, floundering.

“Ahh. Kay, please….”

She tried to tell him to calm down, but the man grabbed her breast as if squeezing it and snapped his hips.

“You can’t leave me. You have to stay by my side.”

Aubrianna’s face turned pale in an instant.

“Don’t tell me your memory….”

“Thinking you could leave here is laughable. You have to stay here by my side.”

“If we keep doing this, won’t a baby come eventually? How about giving that child a sibling? The father will be different, but I’ll raise them like real siblings.”

Now her face turned completely white. Of course, she wouldn’t get pregnant. Ever since giving birth to Theo, she had been drinking tea to prevent it.

But the man’s words brought back memories of the time she had suffered. When she was like a captured beast, tormented beside him without any power.

“Stop.”

Thud, thud. As if he didn’t hear, the man’s movements grew even more violent.

“I said stop!”

At her scream, Kay stopped moving. Aubrianna pushed him away with trembling hands and wrapped herself in the blanket.

‘I can’t let myself be dragged around like this.’

She must have underestimated him too much just because he lost his memory. She swallowed dryly as she looked at his blue eyes, gleaming with unsatisfied desire.

‘No matter what, I have to hold the initiative.’

She couldn’t keep being swayed by his every word anymore.

“Why?”

Kay looked confused, glanced down at his own erection once, then approached her.

“Did I hurt you?”

He looked worried, but the moment she shook her head, he seemed ready to pounce again.

She bit her lip.

“I don’t like being forced.”

The man’s expression changed instantly.

“Don’t tell me that bastard ever….”

His face twisted with concern, as if worried she had once been forced.

Aubrianna steadied her ragged breathing and let out a sigh.

“No.”

There was only one time she had done something she didn’t want, but when she broke into tears, he said this to her.

“If you truly don’t want it, push me away. Then I’ll leave you forever.”

She thought he didn’t know, but he did. He knew what kind of feelings she had for him. Even though she should have gotten angry at him for toying with her feelings and pushed him away, in her previous life, she ended up clinging to him with trembling hands.

The firewood crackled, and in the orange glow, the man’s face flickered and shifted.

“Come here.”

At her words, Kay immediately came closer, and she cupped his cheek.

This isn’t love.

Aubrianna’s fingertips trailed down his thick neck, over his firm chest and abdomen, and grabbed his slightly softened cock.

As if asking whether he could continue, those blue eyes questioned her. At that gaze, Aubrianna smiled with her eyes and whispered, “Be gentle with me.”

Then I won’t leave you.

The blue eyes staring into her ominously burning red irises rippled like a quiet sea, trying to read her intent.

“Of course.”

The man’s hot lips came close again and devoured her. He was gentle, but not calm.